I'm choosing to blog here because other social media platforms have become toxic and unenjoyable for me. Remember when Facebook was fun? Obviously, we are still dealing with a dangerous virus and other important social issues. I'm not suggesting we ignore those things. At the same time, I think it is wise to examine our relationship with social media to see if it is actually healthy for us.
Like many people out there, over the past few months, I've found myself growing more depressed, anxious, and feeling helpless about the world. However, I know that some of this is my own fault. Getting off of FB and IG is a first step. One thing that sounded the alarm for me was the fact that I found myself unable to concentrate. I have been a voracious reader since childhood and the fact that I couldn't read more than a few chapters without getting antsy was really upsetting to me. After some research, the truth was undeniable. Smartphone addiction is real and I needed to take back control.
We all set goals and resolutions. I even follow the "word of the year" method and am a huge advocate of finding a planner system that fits your lifestyle. As soon as the shelter in place order was issued, it became very clear that my planner system and goals I had set really weren't going to work.
After a lot of soul searching, I decided that big goals and definitive timelines needed to be put on hold for a bit. Changed my word of the year to "enchantment" and realized that I missed feeling inspired and connected to the world around me.
I've always been the black sheep of my family. March to the beat of my own drum and probably a little too rebellious for my own good. I've been accused of being a daydreamer, being too sensitive, etc.Turning 40 during this pandemic was a real eye-opener for me. I was at a place where a decision needed to be made. Reclaim my life and live it to the fullest, or continue on this path that was only leading to depression, boredom and a zombie-like, inauthentic existence.
Who knows what the future holds? Time is not guaranteed to us, even more so in the era of Covid-19.The only thing I can do is nourish my creativity and sprinkle my life with enchantment wherever I can find it. Sure, I might be a skeptic who's been disappointment by life from time to time, but I still believe in magic. It exists when we live in tune with nature, when we express our authenticity, and when we cast sacred space beneath a full moon. As I age, I'm fully convinced one of the bravest things you can do in this life is to truly know yourself and live in accordance with your values- critics be damned.
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